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    [–] If you cannot ever get a girlfriend, what exactly is the point of living? ForgiveMeAzathoth 2 points ago in MensLib

    That was online. I just mostly hang out with those guys, currently, and spend the rest of my time in my room suffering.

    [–] If you cannot ever get a girlfriend, what exactly is the point of living? ForgiveMeAzathoth 2 points ago in MensLib

    I'm aware they were all exaggerating, but as they all had girlfriends I doubt they were lying completely.

    [–] If you cannot ever get a girlfriend, what exactly is the point of living? ForgiveMeAzathoth 1 points ago in MensLib

    I hung out with them today, and the first joke they made was about my face (although light-hearted).

    They brought me to Hooters, and just casually talked about their sexual histories. I had to (unconvincingly) lie about mine.

    [–] If you cannot ever get a girlfriend, what exactly is the point of living? ForgiveMeAzathoth 2 points ago in MensLib

    my family doesn't particularly care and some friends have said don't do it, but sounded more annoyed than anything, and did not stay on for more than a few minutes.

    [–] If you cannot ever get a girlfriend, what exactly is the point of living? ForgiveMeAzathoth 1 points ago in MensLib

    I feel it easier for you to empathize with me over the internet than in real life. I've contacted a few people irl and the response has been variable. I think more people would understand that you'd think.

    [–] If you cannot ever get a girlfriend, what exactly is the point of living? ForgiveMeAzathoth 1 points ago in MensLib

    It's be with someone who does or be alone forever. Or, at least be alone for the next few hours.

    [–] If you cannot ever get a girlfriend, what exactly is the point of living? ForgiveMeAzathoth 2 points ago in MensLib

    Well, failure doesn't make me happy, so if I can't produce something good, why produce anything?

    It's nice that your DnD group has that mix. But in my experience, those women are still not interested in me, or even especially not since they have a lot of options in a male-dominated hobby. So I had to maximize my opportunity.

    [–] If you cannot ever get a girlfriend, what exactly is the point of living? ForgiveMeAzathoth 1 points ago in MensLib

    I liked to write everything. I'm not very good at it, but I liked to write about things involving the meaning of life and the struggle against suffering (I had great ideas but those are cheap, I have to be an actual good write for it go anywhere). So it was never more than a hobby.

    I tried playing DnD one time, it was fun, but rightly r wrongly I've simply shamed myself away from any hobby I think women might not enjoy.

    [–] If you cannot ever get a girlfriend, what exactly is the point of living? ForgiveMeAzathoth 1 points ago in MensLib

    you could live with not having a girlfriend in high school?

    Yes. High school me was far more hopeful, and I had obvious reasons that could be improved why I never got one.

    My hobbies used to include reading history, philosophy, writing some, watching movies and TV. I work out a lot too but am not a fan of it as a "hobby".

    I got rid of the non-workout hobbies since women made fun of them when I said that, publicly.

    [–] If you cannot ever get a girlfriend, what exactly is the point of living? ForgiveMeAzathoth 1 points ago in MensLib

    I should have been euthanized and don't have value as a person.

    I can live with not having success in high school or middle school - in all honesty, I didn't have the best personality (was a bit weird) and crushed on women who worked out all the time, while I myself didn't.

    But that's different now. If women can't be attracted to me now, they never will be, ever. Life doesn't have any purpose if I cannot have a life partner. It will just be constant pain.

    [–] I will be dead tonight. Since I will never know what sex feels like, what was your first time like? ForgiveMeAzathoth 1 points ago in sex

    Sleeping with a prostitute would not help the fact I would be unable to attract a woman.

    It's like saying paying a stripper counts as getting a women to be naked with you.

    [–] If you cannot ever get a girlfriend, what exactly is the point of living? ForgiveMeAzathoth 1 points ago in MensLib

    I already hotlines. All they have to say is it "will get better". No it won't. That's the same line they told me a year ago. And the year before that. And in high school, and middle school. Guess what? It didn't get better.

    I appreciate the help and love you showing me, I assure you, but some of us should have been euthanized as children.

    [–] If you cannot ever get a girlfriend, what exactly is the point of living? ForgiveMeAzathoth 1 points ago in MensLib

    Lots of guys who are more attractive than me, and who receive even a modicum of attention from women. I don't want to live my whole life without any sort of sexual satisfaction of any kind, I don't want my sexuality to be inherently wrong and shameful. If I can't castrate myself I'll kill myself.

    [–] If you cannot ever get a girlfriend, what exactly is the point of living? ForgiveMeAzathoth 1 points ago in MensLib

    Well I will be disappearing, because I will be dead. There is no point in going on. I cannot bear this shame any longer. I cannot bear half the population detesting me on sight. I cannot live with myself anymore. Goodbye.

    [–] If you cannot ever get a girlfriend, what exactly is the point of living? ForgiveMeAzathoth 1 points ago in MensLib

    right now are temporary

    I've had them since I hit puberty. They are not "going away". I'm 21 now. When are they supposed to stop?

    No friends really care about me, deep down. They could easily live without me. My family doesn't really care. I don't like my career. And if you're trying to tell me video games are a "reason to go on living" I don't know what to tell you.

    [–] What is the most tragic thing about humanity? ForgiveMeAzathoth -3 points ago in AskWomen

    The fact I can be born with financial privilege that many billions would kill for, but also born too ugly to actually derive happiness from life.