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    [–] Having one good day is doable, but how do you do that again? 360 times in a row, 70 years in a row? actually_crazy_irl 1 points ago in DecidingToBeBetter

    I decided to make monday my non-internet day, and that succeeded great, and I polished off almost everything on my to-do -list, but come tuesday I just wanted to sleep.

    [–] Having one good day is doable, but how do you do that again? 360 times in a row, 70 years in a row? actually_crazy_irl 1 points ago in DecidingToBeBetter

    I hate to always be turning down suggestions, but discgolf is not only virtually unheard of in Finland, but there are no free courses, as both a merely seasonal and an indoors course would be expensive to maintain, and an outdoor one would be unplayable in the winter due to several feet of snow.

    But I've tried to pick up cross stitching.

    [–] Having one good day is doable, but how do you do that again? 360 times in a row, 70 years in a row? actually_crazy_irl 1 points ago in DecidingToBeBetter

    How do you measure learning?

    I can measure by "read the chapter and learned the thing" and then end up eating shit in the exam when I did not, in fact, learn the thing.

    [–] Having one good day is doable, but how do you do that again? 360 times in a row, 70 years in a row? actually_crazy_irl 1 points ago in DecidingToBeBetter

    In the past two days I've designed my first cross stitch pattern. I meant to go buy the tools today, but missed it.

    I don't know what to do with the reality that this is all I will ever amount to in life, though.

    [–] Having one good day is doable, but how do you do that again? 360 times in a row, 70 years in a row? actually_crazy_irl 1 points ago in DecidingToBeBetter

    I don't have anything that would spark a light. Sometimes when I'm drunk I get overwhelmed with an overflowing love for all of humanity and living things, but that's about it.

    [–] Having one good day is doable, but how do you do that again? 360 times in a row, 70 years in a row? actually_crazy_irl 1 points ago in DecidingToBeBetter

    I'm studying biology because I figured that I like animals. I like hearing about animal intelligence and how crows outwit people. But I don't want to memorise the names of the different particles that make DNA work.

    And I like the funny stuff that people do, like in yiddish "speak of the devil and he shall appear" is "it's a pity we weren't talking about the messiah", and that kind of funny shit. But I don't want to memorise names and dates of psychologists and the names of their concepts that barely ever even differ from one-another.

    I don't think "I like things that are funny" is a key to finding a successful career. Sometimes people just don't like or enjoy anything worthwhile or useful. Some people were not made to be useful.

    [–] Having one good day is doable, but how do you do that again? 360 times in a row, 70 years in a row? actually_crazy_irl 1 points ago in DecidingToBeBetter

    I don't think I've ever had to overcome anything that was harder. Managing not to kill myself is a non-action, and has so far been the solution to everything I've ever dealt with.

    [–] Having one good day is doable, but how do you do that again? 360 times in a row, 70 years in a row? actually_crazy_irl 2 points ago in DecidingToBeBetter

    Yesterday I put on some music and meditated an hour before having to head for school. Or I'm not sure if you can call it meditation, I wasn't able to focus on thinking about nothing, mainly it proves that I am capable of sitting perfectly still and doing absolutely nothing for a full hour, which isn't exactly news.

    I can't have children, so a career is the only hope I have of a good life, and I can't have that if I can't even study.

    [–] Having one good day is doable, but how do you do that again? 360 times in a row, 70 years in a row? actually_crazy_irl 5 points ago in DecidingToBeBetter

    Doing a normal day's worth of things shouldn't be burning yourself out. People have been going about doing things and having hobbies ever since there have been people. It should be normal.

    [–] Having one good day is doable, but how do you do that again? 360 times in a row, 70 years in a row? actually_crazy_irl 3 points ago in DecidingToBeBetter

    I’ve been seeing psych professionals since I was 14.

    I’m 24. I’m not in university. I’m taking high school level classes and learning nothing.

    [–] Having one good day is doable, but how do you do that again? 360 times in a row, 70 years in a row? actually_crazy_irl 1 points ago in DecidingToBeBetter

    This grade is building up to the final exam which determines whether I will get into university, and if I can't get into university I might as well shoot myself now.

    Put short, more important than my life.

    [–] Having one good day is doable, but how do you do that again? 360 times in a row, 70 years in a row? actually_crazy_irl 5 points ago in DecidingToBeBetter

    Well, I know I won't learn anything by trying to cram everything in 5 minutes before the exam. But I also know that if I try to take my time, every day I'll pick up the book, stare at it, open it, stare at it more, and then decide that I'm too tired to focus today.

    [–] Having one good day is doable, but how do you do that again? 360 times in a row, 70 years in a row? actually_crazy_irl 2 points ago in DecidingToBeBetter

    Somehow, simultaneously you're supposed to push and force yourself when you don't want to, but simultaneously you can't really study something you don't like when you're tired. I guess you're just supposed to pick one and I keep picking the wrong one.

    [–] Having one good day is doable, but how do you do that again? 360 times in a row, 70 years in a row? actually_crazy_irl 12 points ago in DecidingToBeBetter

    I polished off nearly all of my week's to do -list yesterday, planning to finish off the two or three things on it today.

    Instead, being realistic, I promised myself that I wouldn't have to do anything more today if I only just read through the chapters that we went through at class today, because I couldn't pay attention in class.

    After two hours of staring at the pages, I'm seriously tempted to just go to bed at 5 pm.